I feel like there are times in a persons life where they just want to raise the white flag and say "I'm done." For some people I suppose it can happen multiple times in a month, week or even in a day.
I'm to the point where I just want to scream it. Now, this isn't about any one thing either. Its a general thing. To be completely honest it has nothing to do with my boyfriend. It has nothing to do with my best friend. I has nothing to do with my family. For once, this is ALL me. I just want to give up on hope.
I read a quote today that gave me some hope.
Man I'm 22 and I have no idea what I'm going to do or what I want to do with my life. I feel like I should have had it figured out by now. I feel like I was expected to have this figured out with I was 18...or 19 in my case (high school graduation essentially).
What was the check list, growing up, of what I wanted to be? I can remember wanting to be a Doctor, then even further a craniofacial doctor, to help out babies that were like me. Speech therapist, to help kids who had a speech impediment like me. I wanted to sing professionally but I've never been confident enough in myself, I also know its an insanely small chance I would've been famous. I wanted to act....for a long long time....see "singer" excuse. I wanted to be a chef....and then I wanted to be a professional baker. Cakes to be exact. For those of you who know me personally or actually read this, you know I actually make cakes. but my schooling for that was a joke. I intended on completing school for baking and pastry, but that didn't go as planned. Everything I know about cakes or most of what I do, I figured out or I learned from my friend who got to complete school. I LOVE cooking and making cakes....but its not something I want to do professionally for the rest of my life.
I really really.....don't know what I want to do when I grow up.
Input?
I'm to the point where I just want to scream it. Now, this isn't about any one thing either. Its a general thing. To be completely honest it has nothing to do with my boyfriend. It has nothing to do with my best friend. I has nothing to do with my family. For once, this is ALL me. I just want to give up on hope.
I read a quote today that gave me some hope.
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,I feel like...
The courage to change the things I can, And wisdom to know the difference.
Man I'm 22 and I have no idea what I'm going to do or what I want to do with my life. I feel like I should have had it figured out by now. I feel like I was expected to have this figured out with I was 18...or 19 in my case (high school graduation essentially).
What was the check list, growing up, of what I wanted to be? I can remember wanting to be a Doctor, then even further a craniofacial doctor, to help out babies that were like me. Speech therapist, to help kids who had a speech impediment like me. I wanted to sing professionally but I've never been confident enough in myself, I also know its an insanely small chance I would've been famous. I wanted to act....for a long long time....see "singer" excuse. I wanted to be a chef....and then I wanted to be a professional baker. Cakes to be exact. For those of you who know me personally or actually read this, you know I actually make cakes. but my schooling for that was a joke. I intended on completing school for baking and pastry, but that didn't go as planned. Everything I know about cakes or most of what I do, I figured out or I learned from my friend who got to complete school. I LOVE cooking and making cakes....but its not something I want to do professionally for the rest of my life.
I really really.....don't know what I want to do when I grow up.
Input?
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